Tuesday, November 30, 2004

11:46 PM

The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him.
Ralph waldo emerson

yes.. it is indeed the trust. and i feel weird after winning their trust. i dunno i am stuck. dunno if i really like him but.. dunno im confused. is it better to love somebody or for somebody to love you and who would you choose? i think loving somebody is hard, tiring and confusing. well at least that's what i think. he is like my one of my good guy frens around. bummed around together. talk crap. anw he likes a common friend and is super concern for her lah. he tells me bout how he likes her n stuff but is shy to confess. but it's quite touching to see him so affected by her every move , everything that happened to her. man he is like super concerned for her. i mean to see my good guy fren to cherish his gal is really heart warming but sometimes i just wish the gal is me. maybe it's just a crush? maybe im hallucinating? maybe i shouldnt think bout such stuff at all. or maybe just maybe. i think i shall give up loving somebody. it takes too much off me. yeah.

but yah hope he continues to cherish her and hope he gets her too. i mean they are really nice together.. got alot of moi qi. anw i just hope some where out there the guy for me would do that to me too. so sweet rite.. haizzzz..

ok lah it think it's just me. stupid sheena fantasizing bout stuff. no actually not. it's the season of love that's soon approaching. Christmas. oh i just cant wait. oh yah i was just talking to jasmine bout having a christmas party real soon. with dolus and the gals can cook dinner and we can exchange christmas gifts.. oh so fun.. ok i will post the details in email.

well the weather these days have been real bad man. i havent train for monkey ages lor. and markie wants a showdown soon.. shit lah marginal product has been diminishing. falling to negative. but i shall still thrash him * cross fingers* ..

anw my fren sent me this link. it's called jian dan ai. telling people to follow their hearts and chase after the one they love. hmm... eh it's quite cute lah so do check it out. but yeah to all, if you really love somebody go for it. dont be like me. *sheena grins*

http://arch.pconline.com.cn/pcedu/carton/qq/10301/128958.html



The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him.
Ralph waldo emerson

yes.. it is indeed the trust. and i feel weird after winning their trust. i dunno i am stuck. dunno if i really like him but.. dunno im confused. is it better to love somebody or for somebody to love you and who would you choose? i think loving somebody is hard, tiring and confusing. well at least that's what i think. he is like my one of my good guy frens around. bummed around together. talk crap. anw he likes a common friend and is super concern for her lah. he tells me bout how he likes her n stuff but is shy to confess. but it's quite touching to see him so affected by her every move , everything that happened to her. man he is like super concerned for her. i mean to see my good guy fren to cherish his gal is really heart warming but sometimes i just wish the gal is me. maybe it's just a crush? maybe im hallucinating? maybe i shouldnt think bout such stuff at all. or maybe just maybe. i think i shall give up loving somebody. it takes too much off me. yeah.

but yah hope he continues to cherish her and hope he gets her too. i mean they are really nice together.. got alot of moi qi. anw i just hope some where out there the guy for me would do that to me too. so sweet rite.. haizzzz..

ok lah it think it's just me. stupid sheena fantasizing bout stuff. no actually not. it's the season of love that's soon approaching. Christmas. oh i just cant wait. oh yah i was just talking to jasmine bout having a christmas party real soon. with dolus and the gals can cook dinner and we can exchange christmas gifts.. oh so fun.. ok i will post the details in email.

well the weather these days have been real bad man. i havent train for monkey ages lor. and markie wants a showdown soon.. shit lah marginal product has been diminishing. falling to negative. but i shall still thrash him * cross fingers* ..

anw my fren sent me this link. it's called jian dan ai. telling people to follow their hearts and chase after the one they love. hmm... eh it's quite cute lah so do check it out. but yeah to all, if you really love somebody go for it. dont be like me. *sheena grins*

http://arch.pconline.com.cn/pcedu/carton/qq/10301/128958.html

Monday, November 29, 2004

9:35 AM

Happy days are coming!

I am so sleepy!! Slept around 4 and had to wake up at 9 to wait for the cableman to arrive. Yup! my house is officially wireless!! 15 mins later, I chanced upon starhub website to find a new plan. $2.50 a day! bleah! Thats so much cheaper..

10 Things to do after the (argh) exams:
1. Sleep!
2. Catch a couple of plays. I've just received the arts xplosion magazine and saw a couple of great play and a ballet coming up that sounds good
3. KL! KL! KL! Alana: are we still going bintan?
4. Party!
5. Earn some money!
6. Go sign up for classes - I'm going to sign up for accounting class and yoga! Tennis and two star classes are still considering though..
7. Catch up with all those i neglected
8. Gym
9. Suntan!
10. Collect free ice cream. <https://home.singtel.com/incircle/index.asp> Please access here to get one free scope of ice cream! yummy!

Sunday, November 28, 2004

7:18 PM

Ever wondered why some people can say the worse things?

I admit sometimes I say the wrong things at the wrong time that induces some blows to innocent people and I really regret it. Serves me right! However, I have definitely encountered several huge blows myself and I must say that it hurts. Is it their malicious nature that they inflict pain to others or is it just their insensitivity that allowed them to just do it feeling guiltlessness? If they bestow such pain time and over again on you, can they really be regard as friends? Anyway, what does the term 'friendship' entails? Is it forgiveness and tolerance? To what extend can we consider it then? Should we just cut loss and just forget the whole 'friendship' and let it evaporate into the time as dust?
Sometimes it is worth it; sometimes it is confusing about choosing whether to do so or not, but to reach this stage alone is unquestionably evidentially that one’s hurting. I guess time will provide an answer.

Pok: thanks for all the support during the last whole week of exams, thanks for being there whenever i'm down and out. Sometimes i wonder what i do without u. Luv ya!
Meiyin: Cheer up k! next time i'm sure u succeed! anyway enjoy ur hols to china and good luck for result!
Alana: Its not the end of the world! Come on! Be strong and fight 'argh' macro together!
For those nice souls who sent all those sms of support! Thank you.

Happy holidays to those who finished while those who yet to finish, jia you! let us fight against the evilness of exams!

Friday, November 26, 2004

4:11 PM

So i caved in. I couldn't control. I was under stress. The temptation was so great - right in front of me whenever i sit there. I should be studying but in the end i went straight for the remote. Sex in the city. That is the curse of exams. That huge temptation lies in front of my television. It is within my visual line of contact whenever i watch tv. There i was on my couch watching tv when i took the plunge and slipped the first dvd in. My attempt for attention to my books was with decreasing returns of scale. Further distractions of the computer and the bed made it almost impossible to study. That was why i only started studyin for today's paper at 10pm last nite. In short - i dug my grave.

Thursday, November 25, 2004

12:17 PM

hmm seems like everybody screwed up psych.

aLAna; [Dio, lo conserva; Ergo,Devo avere fede.] learning to live like *she under the Tuscan Sun. says:
my fren met our tutor in the canteen and they had lunch...
aLAna; [Dio, lo conserva; Ergo,Devo avere fede.] learning to live like *she under the Tuscan Sun. says:
hes like saying.. from the fill in the blanks, we're all so screwed n that without moderation, he thinks most will fail

two perspective to look at it:
1. Oh shit! we are so screwed!
2. yay! there's hope of moderation!

Lets hope reality comes true for the second option. Good luck for the rest of the papers!~

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

5:04 PM

Good friends must not always be together. It's the feeling of oneness when distant that proves lasting friendship.
Susan Polis Schutz

how apt. i was thinking bout my good friend who's studying in NTU. Suddenly just missed her exaggerated laughter esp when it turned into a bimbotic gasp. how she smacks me real hard for god knows what reasons i somehow dont remember. to run 3.2km with her in jj while people are chao piahing. how we crap and get into stupid conversations like me going to milan later for tea and she to france to get her gucci suit for her poodle (obviously we found joy in doing stupid stuff). how she wants to kidnap my kid and make my kid hers ( like as if she wont get married like that.. but yah she is quite intimating to some guys esp in takewando. when she spars with them she literally make them flee.) oh how i miss those times. so SRI RANJINI MEI HUA if u are looking at this now, i miss you loadz.

anw mel i guess you feel the same way too. you seem to really miss your that friend alot too. but i guess it's such distances that really put your friendship to the test. for me i havent been talking to jini for a long long time. and i think our relationship not as strong as before. nevertheless even though the friendship may seem be shaky or even failed, i think we should try to take the first step to try and see if we could plaster back the wounds and holes. at least you know you tried and if tomorrow never comes, at least you are sure that you did cherish this friendship and that you tried. hope you are feeling better now though.. take care k babe..

well im super happy that im finally done with psy n social work. phewww. that's why i took some time to write in an entry. i feel high man. anw somehow i kinda enjoyed it leh. i mean the whole process of going to sch at 8am half awake and tutors who are super sacarstic and yet crazy. content that you thought you would never be able to remember (i still dont. i just anyhow whack my psy paper) but most importantly the friends who accompained you to the lects, drove you to sch( and you thought it might be a bad idea esp when she opppz i mean the driver anyhow cut people's lanes.. hehz), had breakfast with you after lt8 although some grumble away to go for their next lect and most importantly support all of them gave. thank you all dolus.

it's a rainy tuesday evening and it had dashed my thought of running. oh well i think it's a sign. sign that says "SHEENA SENG MEI HUI! YOU HAD BETTER GO STUDY!!!"

Monday, November 22, 2004

8:35 AM

How come we don’t talk anymore? I still remember the times when we would go out and do the craziest things, the times we spent at your place studying and reading archie comics, the times we went to church together and times we spend talking on the phone talking about everything under the sun! Being with each other was like the most comfortable thing in the world.
We used to have the same taste in every thing: music, fashion, people, food… everything! But now we are like strangers who just acknowledge each other’s presence with a ‘hi ‘, that is if we even bump into each other. Now even talking to each other on msn seems utterly weird. Hell! These technological gadgets didn’t event existed when we knew it other.
Time has evolved and changed every thing. We are no longer the young and innocent things we once were. We are now strangers in this foreign adult world with bonds that are susceptible to more damage. Damn I miss you…

Sunday, November 21, 2004

7:27 PM

i adopted a penguin. its purple in colour. clicking on it helps me to release stress. go adopt a penguin now!

~stress, stress, stress~

stress makes you binge. i know i do. have been having ice cream for the last two weeks! ice cream is a 'soul food' that elevates your mood and makes you feel good. go get one tub today!

wha this blog sounds like some advertisment. i must be going mad. i hope i don't cut off my ear like vincent van gogh.. ~crap.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

11:52 PM

The best part of life is when your family becomes your friends, and your friends become your family.
Danica Whitfield

Despite being in the midst of exams and yes i have psy n social work papers on monday.. ( and im so dead coz there's just TOO MUCH TO ABSORB!!!) i will still blog. a form of de-stressing.

oh man i cant wait for saturday 27th. strictly at 3:04pm ( 4mins for them to collect scripts and all the yadas.) that day i will be free.. yes would be recovering from all the saturation of those stupid information. ok let me list down all the stuff i wanna do after the 27th.

THINGS I WANNA DO ( after the dreadfuls)
1. to jog off the de stressor bars i had. although it was indeed de-stressing but one cant deny the fact that it's horribly fattening!

2. to paint! my hands have been itching like dunno when.

3. baking spree.. i wanna cook lah and yes melvin i try to find some new recipes lah. TRY...

4. shopping for christmas presents? shit i think i need to make crafts lah.. so many prezzies to buy leh.. i think i pok gia..

5. mass produce the crafts for fund raising. (compulsory) no choice im part of my church camp com n yes im being explioted..

6. prepare for show down! yess how can i ever forget that.. I WILL THRASH MARKIE in tennis..

7. sun tanning.. i badly need one..

8. still thinking.

9. still thinking..

10. still thinking....(hehz.)

Sunday, November 14, 2004

7:28 AM

things i learnt in the last 4 days

1. The way to go yishun from buena vista and how to go from tampines to adam rd in a 2.5 hr car ride

2. Club street has a lot of nice restaurants

3. Never drink E33 last. You be happy if you get home in one piece

4. Never drink from a shotglass that is flaming. It burns your tongue. Please blow out the flames before consumption.

5. Some men are shitters, some are not.

6. You can get pregnant without having sex.

7. It feels good to say no to Zouk.

8. It feels terrible to be away for christmas.

9. I hate exams even after 13 years of academic experince.

10. I am going to fail my exams because all the things i learnt are not academic.

Saturday, November 13, 2004

10:58 PM

Do not save your loving speeches for your friends till they are dead; Do not write them on their tombstones, speak them rather now instead
Anna Cummins

ok i am so dead. havent really started intense studying. quite bad man. correction. very very bad. i think i will do badly lor. so many distractions at home. guess i will hit to macdonalds or starbucks soon. haizzz..

anw i played tennis this morning. wah super satisfying. esp when all these while i have been sitting down an d watching fats consolidate into sedimentary rock. dont you all feel like a ploof of blubber when u spend the day on the study desk and doing nothing but reading and facilitating fats to consolidate at your bum. well that's how i feel lah. markie beware! im preparing real hard for the tennis showdown. i shall thrash you. i will. *cross fingers* can we have a badminton showdown too? i think i might fare better at that. * i think*..

ok have been crapping soo.. much. shall attempt to try study now. (hope i will..)

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

10:54 PM

Love is blind, but friendship closes its eyes.

ok school feels weird. i think it's the time of the year again. ERRRGHHHH EXAMsss!!! man why does it always feel like ages for it to reach yet when u are there, it just pass u by within a split sec. gosh. cant wait for it to be over and yes i wanna do lotz of crazy stuff after exams man. i wanna be free... now whenever i go to cl lib i feel threatened. the sight of people mugging is scary and i think it's distracting as well. people flipping their pages super loudly. the stupid lift that makes so much noise. people walking pass you and you just cant help but to check them out ( hey everybody does that k.. im just one of them). a faint snore somewhere. maybe someone munching on durian custard puff ( to the person who does that, u might wanna try just normal custard puff next time u eat in the lib.. haha kidding..) but whatever it is it is only at this time of the year will you find such phenomenon. ok shall blog next time.. nt v soon. i need to mug badly.



Melvin, sheena and i decided to stop bloggin till after the exam. So for those ardent fans out there (if there's any), please come back after the 27th. Anyway here's one for the road as i think its quite an anti climax to end with the moth ideology.

Sunday marks the end of many many thousand word essays for the semester. Feelings are ditto to roch. Celebrations are a must but mugging for the frigging exams goes first.. DAMn. haha I wan to have a chalet! i want to party! i want to go away.. somewhere! anywhere! but such freedom seems like so far away!

School seems depressing today. Maybe its the end of the semester or maybe its the lack of people around, i don't know. School is such a weird phenomenon. You hate it when its start but a feeling of nostalgia fills u when u think about the great things that do happen in school. oh well.

Song in my mind now...Bizarre Love Triangle
Every time i think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

I HATE SCHOOL!

Thursday, November 04, 2004

2:05 AM

Yesterday i saw a moth on the shower screen. I screamed and my maid removed it. I jokingly told my aunt tat it could be my late grandfather. Then, she told me it was All saints day. How weird is that? Could it really be my late grandfather? So does that mean my grandfather died twice?